Forever and Always

I'm in love with you. I always have been and I always will be. You told the stupidest jokes and you tasted like blackberries. You were immature, wild, and somewhat idiotic and I still fell from the moon into your arms in less than a second. You flew me across the universe the first night we met into our best friends bed. Innocent kisses and eager to please, you were my everything...you are my everything. I hate the feeling of still needing your arms around me, my mind plays tricks on me leading me to believe your safe under the covers with me in my bed. I hear your voice in my ear at night telling you need me more than I need you. Kissing me softly telling me not to cry when you have to leave in the morning. You tell me you'll come back the next night and on some level I know your not real. I know that the real you is out fucking every young thing that passes your gorgeous brown eyes around the halls of your new campus. I never shared your passion for the stage, nor did I play your video games...but I was eager to listen and learn. I would do anything for you, I will do anything for you. You took me across the universe again, from the valley to pv and back again. Then you left me, you left us, you left our friends and our life. You don't know the things I did and I don't know the things you've done. All I know is that we are each others destiny. We always have been, always will be. I must have known you in another world, another time, another place, another life. We must have been together, star crossed lovers, husband and wife, Lord and Harlot, we belong together. I know deep in my soul that you are mine as I am yours. I need you. I desperately need your hand in mine and your heart beating under my fingers. I need your touch and your lips upon my own. It hurts, the dull ache pulsing beneath my skin, driving me insane. I love you. I am in love with you. I will always be in love you. Forever and Always.

stop being a tweet!

For the past couple of days I have realized that there has been a surge in all the social networking sites. Specifically Facebook and Twitter. Not only does everyone on earth have both a Facebook and Twitter, but now celebrities, tv shows, talkshows, etc.. now have signed up for these social networking sites. I may complain and/or rant about these social networking sites, but at the same time I feel like such hypocrite because I myself have a facebook,twitter,myspace, and a blog! I should not be talking, however, I believe my reasons in having these "social networking profiles" are justified. The only reason I keep a myspace and facebook is because it's such an easy tool to use to stay in touch with friends across the country who don't have the time to sit down everyday and have a conversation over the phone (btw I HATE THE PHONE,except to text) I have a twitter only because two years ago when I was at Woodbury my friend Jessica told me about it and I thought it would be fun to try...apparently it has taken that long for people to turn into the new "social networking fad" As for my blog, I realize that most people don't read this and it's more of a guilty pleasure for myself to rant, admit crushes, and try to get rid of the writers block i've had for two years! I can't seem to find anything creative to write about (I think I need to take a creative writing class or something) Anyways, I find it disgusting how the media has taken over all of these networking sites. I mean I guess I can understand facebook and myspace, but twitter?! I'm sorry WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU INSANE DO YOU REALLY HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO THEN UPDATE YOUR TWITTER YOU FUCKING TWEET! Uggh I really don't understand the new found fascination with twitter, really I don't. It's practically facebook minus the profile. It's a status people, that's it! Why in the world do you need TWO statuses...unless you're doing two things at once but even then what are you gonna do link your twitter to your facebook and say oh check out my twitter to see whatelse I'm doing. NO! people do not have the time to trace your twitter to your facebook or your facebook to your twitter. (unless they have nothing better to do and at that point you really shouldn't be considered an actual person in society) yes it's harsh but I am so flabbergasted(finally got to use that word! 10pts for me!) by the obsession with all of these social networking sites. Maybe it's because I had most of these things before they became popular, just how i like my music, new sounds before they become popular. I've always been able to spot trends like that. I had a facebook, before they opened it up to "everyone" and I had a myspace before everyone and their mother had one, same with twitter. The thing is, as much as I now want to delete all my accounts for these sites, I can't. They've somewhat become an integral part of my social life (don't yell at me yet, let me explain) The only reason I say this is because if I did delete them, I would cut my tie to a huge majority of my friends that I miss terribly, and I wouldn't be able to keep up with people from high school and college. So anyways that's enough for now on social networking. It's a love/hate relationship...whatever will I do.

As for more interesting news...well I don't really have any but I can list some highlights of past weeks.

• Saw Illusion
• I havn't been to Business Law since the first class
• I have a major crush on a media genius named david
• I hate the theater department and their loudmouth and obnoxious students
• I sat across from Vivca A. Fox last nigth at CPK
• I've smoked these past two days(not wise but I've been pretty stressed)
• I need to move out of my house
• I played apples to apples drunk (It's fantabulous!)
• Social networking is a joke!
• I love my friends
• I might get a new phone...possibly...we'll see.
• Work is ehh...but fun.

Well I'm going to head off to work soon, gotta get dressed, pick up lunch and go to work. So until next time....

3 a.m.

You smelled of Evergreen and Lime...my mind melted and all I wanted to do was hold your hand. Three hours of sitting in a worn down theater, with you, watching the epic tale unfold on screen. All I wanted to do was move closer.